March 2012
12 posts
you make me smile
Don't blame me for being moody
Ultimate Boyfriend
Sometimes I have doubts. Sometimes I’m not sure.
But at the end of the day, when I’m actually spending time with you. I then feel like you’re the ultimate boyfriend. You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Am I being foolish? Am I being naive? Blind? Stubborn? Should I not be so easily convinced? Should I be thinking otherwise?
But I’m very happy that you were being honest when I asked you.
Instead of me finding out myself.
I only want more and more of your attention because you don’t give me enough.
Insecurities. It's mostly because of you. You gave...
You know I don’t like it. You know how much it bothers me. But it’s okay, go ahead. Keep doing whatever you want. Obviously nothing can stop you.
Only you can make me feel this way.
Remember on Sunday night, you had to leave? You couldn’t stay the night with me?
Remember when you were hugging me in bed, and kissed me all over? You then told me you love me. You were holding me with almost all of your strength. I remember as if it was just yesterday. I felt so loved. I felt so much joy running in my body. I felt my heart pounding for more.
I bursted in tears. Not only...
It's not the right time to be selfish.
Why am I complaining? I can’t be so selfish. I know you’re in a situation where you have a lot to deal with. You have a lot on your to-do list. I know. I knew before it even happened. So why am I being so selfish? I should be supporting you, not nagging you. I should be by your side encouraging you.
I’m just feeling ill, I can take care of myself. I’m turning 19 soon. I...
Come home and take care of me. Please?
My head is currently pounding. I feel like my body is on fire. Yesterday was already bad enough. It just keeps getting worse and worse. I just want someone to take care of me. I’m practically tearing in bed because of this pain. I don’t know what is, but it keeps getting worse.
I can’t even go back to sleep and if I do, I’d wake up every hour. Why? I don’t get it. I...
February 2012
40 posts
I know I’m currently not your number one priority at the moment. Probably not even second or third. It hurts to know and feel that way but what can I do? You can’t force anything. You just have to deal with it. Suck it up and continue with what you’re doing.
I can’t help but to complain. I know I know, I can just easily go live with my mother and sister, but I refuse to.
While you’re in pain, sick, or depressed, you just want someone, your mom to be specific, to be there for you. I’m in so much pain at the moment. I just want someone to be here for me. Make me some food, maybe some congee? Feed me the RIGHT medicine. I accidentally...
” I don’t know where you’re...
What's a relationship without a little pain?
You need to make sacrifices.
You’ll always be my number one priority.
You know exactly what to do
I’d choose to spend time with you over anything. I don’t know why, but I can be sitting here watching you for hours, and I’d be satisfied. More than satisfied, it would make my day! Seeing you happy makes me so happy. I feel like its my duty to satisfy you and to make you comfortable. A duty that I enjoy.
I acknowledge everything you do. Everything you need. You’re just a...
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Here it comes again. Fucking pain like no tomorrow. Which means I’m probably staying in tomorrow. Why can’t you go away. I’m so god dam tired of taking pills and pills. You’re so fucking annoying. Goddamit.
Brushes, paint, canvas!
I’ve been having the urge to paint lately. After seeing artworks in my class, I wanna create some amazing artworks myself. I have the skills, it’s just if I’m willing to do it. I’m probably going to go to Pearl Paint on Friday or Utretch. I only have finger paints and fabric paint at home.. I want to get acrylics and a a canvas board. Maybe I’ll buy a easel too. Ugh,...
Sleepless nights
Hopefully my first class is canceled tomorrow! But dam, my girl isn’t going to class tomorrow since she’s sick. That means I’m gonna be alone the whole day! Rawrs. No more sending notes during class. No one to keep me entertained in class. And taking the train back by myself. Let’s hope I don’t get shot in Harlem. Lol, since two people got shot at the train station a...
I haven’t had a smile on like that for a while now. I guess there’s just a lot of things going on in my life right now that I forgot how to smile, how to be happy. I spent that night with my girl. Her being all crazy and going all out was my entertainment of the night. This picture was taken by her actually.I don’t know why but every time I see this photo, I smile. Maybe its...
After being disappointed so many times, you start...
I want some real food. So sick and tired of all this msg. Literally feel like I’m getting sick.
I’m so hungry, but it’s so warm under this blanket. Why does it have to be so cold here? :’(
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Fashion Design
For my Art in Education class, I had to do project on my very own experience in art education. After explaining to my fellow classmates and professor how my dream in high school was to be a fashion designer, everyone including the professor tried to persuade me to follow my dream. They saw potential in my works. Though I don’t have much. Something inside of me is telling me to go for it and...
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Sometimes I envy people who have a home they can go to where their dinner is waiting for them. Or when their parents call them late at night wondering where they are or when they’re going to be home.
I wish I had parents who cared about me while I was growing up or even now. It’s true, studies show that the first three years of your childhood is really important. If the child is...
Sometimes I just feel like I'm left here to rot.
Hopeless
Pointless
I will always love you. Forever & always.